Time in a Bottle

If I could save time in a bottle The first thing that I'd like to do Is to save every day 'Til eternity passes away Just to spend them with you

I guess I will always wish for more time. This week especially I think about more time with my niece who died in 2017, and more time for my sister I never knew to live a full life. Their yahrzeits are weirdly a day apart, though many years separate them. Yahrzeit candles are meant to burn for 24 hours, on the day of death, but Cheryl’s is still burning today after 48 hours. So it burns next to her never met aunt Donna’s candle I lit today. Do I believe they know I do this, somewhere in their afterlife? Some days I do. Some days I feel each of them with me. Donna seems to have hovered for a long time, looking out for her little sister, but now I think she’s gone on to another realm. Cheryl is here so much still. Maybe it’s my own regrets that keep her here. My wish list today is also for more time with the sister I knew very well, who is also gone. More time to figure things out with her. My only witness. Thank you for reading my self indulgence here in this decidedly terrible time.